There were Jorrocks’ Jaunts and Jollities; there were
Soapy Sponge and Mrs. Asquith’s Memoirs and Big Game
Shooting in Nigeria, all spread open. Ever so many books
there were; but none that seemed exactly right to take to Evelyn
Whitbread in her nursing home. Nothing that would serve to amuse her
and make that indescribably dried-up little woman look, as Clarissa
came in, just for a moment cordial; before they settled down for the
usual interminable talk of women’s ailments. How much she wanted
it&emdash;that people should look pleased as she came in, Clarissa
thought and turned and walked back towards Bond Street, annoyed,
because it was silly to have other reasons for doing things. Much
rather would she have been one of those people like Richard who did
things for themselves, whereas, she thought, waiting to cross, half
the time she did things not simply, not for themselves; but to make
people think this or that; perfect idiocy she knew (and now the
policeman held up his hand) for no one was ever for a second taken
in. Oh if she could have had her life over again! she thought,
stepping on to the pavement, could have
looked even differently!!