Whooo!
Shake it out!
I've been on four job interviews today, Eileen; I've got one more
to go.
I lost my job with the answering service because I would not
lie for people who wanted me to say they were out
when they weren't. These days
integrity is not a required skill.
It's not that I lack ambition. I am ambitious in the sense that I
want to be more than I am now. But if I were truly
ambitious, I think I'd already be more than I am now.
My seminar leader said to me, "Chrissy, you are a classic
`false hope' case" . . . because not only do I not have a very firm
grasp on reality, see,
but I have a sort of loose grip on my fantasies, too.
I'm working on overcoming my fears, Eileen,
but it's not easy.
At the Phobia Institute once,
this guy in group told about a friend who was terrified
of driving on the freeway,
but finally she conquered her fear and got so she thought
nothing of driving on the freeway.
And guess what?
She died
in a freeway accident.
That story has always stuck with me.