1982

I knew she was in pain. How could I have thought I was getting
through to her when all I did was nag and criticize, and when
that didn't work, I just withdrew. Bob said I did all I could to help
her, but I have to face the fact it's not true.

We had a memorial service at her store.
We cried and then we got stoned on her sinsemilla.
Then we just laughed until we cried again.

Janet was there. I asked about Agnus. She told
me that she'd lost custody, that Agnus had been
living with her father and his new wife, but had
run away. The look on her face when she talked
about Agnus. I can't stop thinking about it--
all those missing children you hear so much about. To
think now Agnus is one of them.

I felt so grateful for Bob and the kids. From now on,
I will be Mega-Mom,
Wonder
Working
Woman,
Willing Wife.

I will even be the Total Woman...
at least for a night or two.
I don't want us to lose
what we have.