my favorite things

yesterday i had a counseling appointment with someone to talk about the stress i've been having, about not knowing what i want to do after i finish my MEng, about not even knowing if i care about finishing up. strangely i was in such good spirits yesterday i had trouble telling her why i was worried and stressed and i ended up just talking a lot about my family and childhood.


at the appointment, though, i lost my favorite hat, a light brown thing from urban outfitters, and did not find it even after backtracking all of my steps, and my mood did plummet. i know it's a little silly because it's just a hat and i can probably find another one or a similar one. but it reminded me how i always lose things, no matter how much i try to take good care of them. i am especially good at losing my favorite things. i've done it again, today too.