June 2, 1786

Things are going well. Claude and I recently got over our first multi-day argument. Last week he just didn't come home until three in the morning at which point I was fully enraged. I started demanding he tell me exactly where he had been for the evening, why he was coming home so late and why he so diligently insisted that I stay awake and wait for him if he simply planned on coming home drunk. He started to explain that he had been out have discussions with his friends and it became rather involved. I was too tired to listen to his excuses so I went to bed. The next day, in a more sober state, he told me about the conversations the night before and how he had finally met a group of men who were just as interested in the imbalance of power as he was.

This threw me off for a bit. I knew that Claude had very strong views about the situation of the nation but I never paid it much attention. I had always been taught to think for myself but my father was very proud of France and taught me to how to love the country as well. We used to go for rides into the countryside to visit his family and I never thought for a second that France was anything but a wonderful place to live. It was this that got Claude into a mood. He was convinced that I had blinders on and I could not see that we as a people were living in an unjust society, run by a man that was afraid of power. He believed that Louis was incompetent and being run by his wife (among others) and Claude wanted me to feel this way too. You see the argument.

It all ended when I agreed with Claude (as most of our arguments do) but this time, I think he has a point. Things have become quite unbalanced in France. The nation was being run by the nobility and the clergy. We as a common citizens were being repressed into thinking that everything was fine. Things were becoming more expensive because the national treasury was heading for a downfall, the ruling classes simply kept it to themselves. I let him go on for the enter afternoon until he felt that he had convinced me that the nation would be better off if the people ruled. "A true democracy" he said.

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