FROM LYN'S JOURNAL, 1982

	I knew she was in pain.  How could I have thought I was getting
	through to her when all I did was nag and criticize, and when
	that didn't work, I just withdrew.  Bob said I did all I could to help
	her, but I have to face the fact it's not true.

	We had a memorial service at her store.
	We cried and then we got stoned on her sinsemilla.
	Then we just laughed until we cried again.

	Janet was there.  I asked about Agnus.  She told 
	me that she'd lost custody, that Agnus had been
	living with her father and his new wife, but had
	run away.  The look on her face when she talked
	about Agnus.  I can't stop thinking about it--	
	all those missing children you hear so much about.  To
	think now Agnus is one of them.

	I felt so grateful for Bob and the kids.  From now on,
	I will be Mega-Mom,
	Wonder
	Working
	Woman,
	Willing Wife.

        I will even be the Total Woman...
        at least for a night or two.
        I don't want us to lose
        what we have.

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